Journey to the Center of the Body - Week Six
By Joey De La Cruz
T-107 Thursday, June 25
Went to the dentist today. Went through that adventure. It was not the most pleasant experience but necessary to maintain a fundamental and essential aspect of the human body. Proper dental hygiene. Not glamorous, but when you’re in a crowd of people and you want to flash that billion-dollar smile, hey gotta do the shitty shit sometimes to keep yourself healthy and beautiful.
T-106 Friday, June 26
Went and connected with a new friend. We had magical discussions. The nature of consciousness, reality, soul, spirit, life. A transcendence has occurred. This person created her own CBD business, pure oil that is made with LITERALLY the energy and frequency of LOVE. Effectively ending cancers, other diseases. But...the ingratitude is real. That is the real issue we face, there is so little gratitude in the world (this message was also brought to light in my acting class by my teacher about how little gratitude he is shown for all the hard work and time he gives to his students), there was a miraculous healing with these products in the bodies of sick people, and no mention of thanks in hardly any form. Where and how are we ungrateful in our body? Is that the source of many of our ailments? Simply because we lack gratitude for our fingers and toes? I say many times a day that I am grateful for my fingers and my toes. My entire body is a marvel of natural creation. The billions of cells, the magic of the symphony that plays out every moment of our existence. Are we grateful for our heart? I know that there are always moments in which we lose our way. But really, where is my attention? How do I care for my body? CBD is one way. K. What a day. Hot date tonight. Happy Friday. Super grateful for every cell in my body. May you be healthy, lovely, radiant and full of love.
T-105 Saturday, June 27
Rest day. Went to the beach. Chilled in the arms of a beautiful woman. The emotional bonding I feel with this person is amazing. The feelings of love, compassion, connection are some really strong, powerful and lovely feelings. Eye gazing, seeing a reflection of myself in another. For once we truly look into the eyes of another, if we look long enough and deep enough, we will begin to see a reflection of our self. But we have to look with compassion, with no assumptions, with an open mind, an open heart and an open soul. If we look into the other seeking to define the other, we will set ourselves up for a massive failure.
T-104 Sunday, June 28
Alone time. It is so important when we get involved with another person that we should carve out time to be alone. I want to share my body with another, but in the journey to the center of the body the only person that truly can occupy that space, is myself. It is important not to lose sight of ourselves or another in our assumptions, expectations of what we feel, believe or think, justified or not as to how we think that other person should show up for us. Time alone allows us space to be our true selves, to take time for ourselves to be ourselves. To tend to that which is important to us, to recharge, to be alone with ourselves and the universe so that we can be the person that the person we are involved with is attracted to. Having lots of sex is great. Having safe sex is even better. Communicating with your partner, keeping it interesting, playful, respectful with open dialogue can help lead sexual adventures forward in exciting and exhilarating new ways.
T-103 Monday, June 29
More lovemaking. Morning yoga routine at 3pm. Woke up to great sex. Got my stretch on. I have not been working out the muscles in the typical sense as I was when this journey began, but then again, muscles are only surface level deep. I have been continuing with my online meditation courses, watching videos on the importance of posture, relaxation and the intentions of meditation. This is the true journey to the center of the body, the center of our spiritual body. These lessons in meditation are taking me into my mind, to my thoughts, which create my reality. Every thought I have has an electrical charge that affects my immediate environment, my cells, my body. Tension and stress can be directly related to the thoughts I think, good or bad, there is an effect on my world through the electrical impulses flashing thought my brain/mind at any particular time.
T-102 Tuesday, June 30
Couch Sex with a view of the ocean. Naked Sex. I got some good rest last night. Woke up feeling great. I still haven’t been working to much on the physical muscles, but I have been developing far more powerful muscles. The muscles of my consciousness and my intention. I have been feeling my Chi more than ever lately. In my hands I can create a force field of energy. I feel this. It’s so real now that I find myself playing with my Chi as you would find a young adolescent boy playing with his penis. Curious, unsure of what it exactly is but noticing that it is a vital part of him and feels good. There is a new awareness growing inside me. I have continued to progress in my lessons in meditation by Ananda.org. They teach lessons about the nature of relaxation and how I must engage in relaxation methods that raise my consciousness. Drugs and alcohol are a temporary escape and then we come down, or crash back down to reality, our issues, our demons and our problems are still there with us. There is no transcendence in these temporary endeavors that, while appealing, do not address the greater issues facing us and in the long run do nothing to raise ourselves above those issues.
Twice now I’ve sat with a physical object and with my hands cupped beside it, used my intentional muscles, my mind body and spirit to physically connect and adjust the object of my awareness. One was a glass of vodka on the rocks, and I mean ice, my neighbor had a sore throat and we had heard about the work of Dr. Emoto of Japan and the Secret of Water and how the intention or vibrational frequency of a word or intent could manifest magnificent crystals when the water froze. This was also seen in laboratory studies when a group of people blessed normal tap water from ta city faucet, first no crystals, then after the blessing, a beautiful crystal formed when frozen. I wanted to infuse the vodka with healing properties and help to ease the sore throat by blessing the vodka. I know people in Russia have been doing this for a long-time, vodka has become a sort of magic elixir, a myth has been created in Russian folklore as to the magical properties of vodka, a belief that vodka can heal.
Belief, what is that? A determination made in the mind? I could feel my hands vibrating with a literal force field as I combined my powers and used my two hands, my heart’s mind to bless the vodka and ice, so that when taken in the body it would have a specific healing effect that would manifest itself in a healing of her throat. And it worked. Along with a regimen of salt water, hydrogen peroxide gargles, and more intentional energy coming directly from my (our, my partner’s) hands to her neck, the sore throat cleared up in 3 days. No other medicine required. I had another opportunity today to be a gardener and accidentally cut a live branch of a tree that leaves THAT IT LIVED ON WERE NOW SUFFERING AND DYING. I PLACED MY HANDS AROUND THE BROKEN BRANCH AND BEGAN TO PRAY AND TO USE MY INTENTION TO SEND BLESSINGS TO THE LITTLE PLANT AND HOPED THAT I COULD IN SOME WAY HEAL IT. THERE WAS NO PHYSICAL CONTACT INVOLVED, BUT THE ENERGETIC CONTACT WAS VERY REAL. I COULD FEEL AGAIN A FORCE FIELD OF ENERGY COMING OFF OF MY HANDS CONNECTING WITH THE PLANT.
This is a fucking journey that is real, I am becoming to realize that my body is the body of the plant. I am seeing now that my consciousness extends beyond my body and therefore is connected and living within the plant in some way, I was just not aware of it. Or I wasn’t until recently. It was magical to sit in the Santa Monica Community Garden and REALLY commune with this plant. I had faith that I could use my body, which consists of my whole being, my super-conscious being, to help connect with the plant, communicate with it and to send loving healing energy to hopefully help heal that little branch and to send life once again up to the leaves that were beginning to die off. I have no idea if what I did helped, but I have faith that there was a tangible measurable connection, Secret Life of Plants by Peter Tompkins & Christopher Bird is a book that I read. I know that plants are ALIVE and they react to intentions of others around them. The forest is alive, I know now that my body extends further than myself. I am beginning to grow and come into my energetic body which is my aura, the magnetic field caused by the beating of my heart. My body continues to expand and grow and I am discovering more by the day. My body grows even more miraculous and strange, and I am beginning to enter territory that has been charted but not by me personally. We are about to go deeper. I feel it. We are only forty days in, and I thought it was my muscles I was after. I can see now that muscles are my body together, but it’s what is deep inside my body that is the true mystery. We will continue to dive deeper. I feel a tingle in my balls, maybe it’s the energy of a beautiful girl calling me over, a sexual connection we share, that we are about to share in. Maybe, I don’t want to make any assumptions, that is an agreement we have made.
T-101 Wednesday July, 1
Wake up, try not to have sex, have more sex. Respect the body. More is not always better. Make sure you listen and recharge and understand that excess leads to depletion. Sleep and relaxation are important. Today is the 5th day that I have been taking CBD and the effects are wonderful, I’m not even sure exactly what the effects have been yet but.
Love. Has struck deep. Cayendo y volando al mismo tiempo. (Falling and flying at the same time)
Found a feather today, a black feather on Ozone Street.