Journey to the Center of the Body - Week Seven & Eight
By Joey De La Cruz
T-100 Thursday, July 2
I’m up. It’s 12:06am and the world has shifted. A new reality has dawned. No more school. New Car. New Relationship. New Relationships. Ending old relationships. With empathy compassion and love. Emotional moments. How do I want to handle them? My emotions certainly reside within me, so here I am, master of my ship. It’s all happening. The deeper I go into the body the more I realize my truth. A puff of weed, a few beers, that is what is circling around the center of my body. That, along with Love. An intoxicating combination, one I am happy to be experiencing now in this moment. I am with myself, my truth, with my surroundings, with another, with my lover. With myself. As within, so without. My ENTIRE without is changing, that must also mean my ENTIRE within has also changed. Evolution of the spirit has occurred. The adventures continue and amplify the frequency of the juice. I‘m feeling it. Is this Love, Bob Marley? Yes. I think it is.
T-99 Friday, July 3
Big shifts occurring on all levels of the body. Energy is moving, things are happening. The energetic body is beginning to flow even greater. Did lots of Meditation classes today, 40 minutes total in a state other than normal wakefulness. I feel more energy in my hands, the force fields continue to grow. I feel the plants now as I walk down the street.
T-98 Saturday, July 4
Was on the beach for sunrise. Doing Tai Chi and Chi Gong. We were apart, together, united in a unique flow. Candles were lit. Emotion flowed. Celestial alignment. Lunar Eclipse.
T-97 Sunday, July 5
I was sleeping on the bed today and I felt the energy of S(partner) on the floor meditating. I could feel her energy expand and it begin to touch and play with mine. I could feel her gentle cloud come close to me and start to envelop me. That must mean that I am becoming sensitive to new waves of energy. My subtle body is gaining prominence, my hands are really becoming hotbeds of this energy. Felt a rock, titanium ... could feel it.
T-96 Monday, July 6
A flow of energy burst from my feet. More prominently from the sole of my right foot, but I feel it coming subtly from the left as well.
T-95 Tuesday, July 7
Joint meditation last night. I received a crystal, I held it in my hand and I could feel the energy coming from it.
T-94 Wednesday, July 8
This has marked (unknown number) of days since I have done a ‘proper’ muscle workout. I have begun to focus on my mind and my spirit. Although the muscles still call, I do want to get back to a good sweat and keep the body moving. This journey has taken me into other realms that have for the moment prioritized muscles that have LONG been DORMANT. But no longer. My diet has altered, deeper in the body the food that had ‘nourished’ me does not promote a healthy vibrant state of being on these deeper levels. A change in my diet was necessary to encourage growth of the subtle. I’ve learned that the subtle is not so subtle at all when we finally understand it.
T-93 Thursday, July 9
Today I wake up and leave from Los Angeles to San Francisco. It’s important to recognize how important our physical surrounding environments play on and influence my physical, emotional and mental bodies. I have been in the same place for many weeks now. I love my home, where I live, and I am constantly in a state of gratitude for the many blessings regarding where and how I live. Yet, it is so important to get a change of scenery from time to time. Fresh input from new places allows me the opportunity to breath different air, see the forest or the trees which my current neighborhood, while beautiful, totally lacks. The senses crave variety, I’m in SF now and the Golden Gate Park is providing my cells something that downtown Venice can’t offer. A forest. A community of trees that speaks to my soul. A change in the air that only thousands of plants can provide, a community of communication exists, and I am receiving all the new input. Far from home I am free from mental traps of work, life and routine and have a opportunity to break out of any mental rut that I may have been unaware I had fallen into. I am free from my surroundings and allowed to explore different options. Take a view of the life I had left with some fresh eyes. Experience new people, new places, new sounds, sights and this brings relief to my entire body. Sleeping in late rejuvenates me.
T-92 Friday, July 10
Today I walked and walked and walked. Taken out of my natural habitat I have found my legs again. Today we walked nearly half the way across San Francisco. 6 miles. My legs were strong, excited to move and be moved by the natural beauty around me. Fresh air, new territory allowed me to forget about my life for just a few moments and be caught up in the present moment. I still haven’t worked out in almost a couple weeks now, but I felt confident in my legs to carry me where we wanted to go. We saw new things, were inspired by the artful surroundings of the houses, people, hills, and trees. The walk has cleared the mind. Allowing me to walk away from things in my past, a former life that needs to be left in the wake of my new being. It served me then, but now, I must let that go so that which is supposed to find me will be allowed to. I have created space by letting a lot go, so that the new may find me.
T-91 Saturday, July 11
Lots of dreams upon waking. The sun is out and new adventures await. Vacation. I love it. I am grateful for my body and I am looking forward to this beatific day and we will see what comes!
T-90 Sunday, July 12
Sunday. The last few days I’ve spent drinking delicious cider and smoking some chronic. And why shouldn’t I? I am here celebrating the life of one of my best friends and also the accomplishments of the last 8 months. This trip marks a grand evolution in my life here in Los Angeles. I have self-graduated out of a school that I have given my all to over the last 8 months. Beverly Hills Playhouse, time to head out into the real world. At some point, we are always a student, but the student must go out into the world and continue that learning in the real world. I’ve worked my ass off; I’ve put in hours upon hours of focus and dedication to studying and honing my craft. And this trip marked the departure of my schooling to a broader, grander more ‘real’ level. There is only so much work that can be done in the confines of a safe space before we must venture out into the world and shine our light. It was a tough and courageous decision to step away from the school, I left behind some amazing people and a wonderful teacher. This was a decision that came to me from my internal intuition. There is a voice that speaks to us ever so gently, ever so quietly in the background of our mind that is often ignored or overlooked. It speaks so sweetly when listened to, it speaks the truth of how we are feeling, thinking, and doing. This intuitive voice is part of the spiritual senses that help us navigate throughout life. It was this voice, speaking repeatedly and with force that gave the first clue to my conscious mind. Sub-conscious and the super-conscious mind. It’s that subtle awareness of trusting your intuition, that quiet voice to lead you where you are supposed to go, and away from where you have been. Therefore, during this dramatic shift in my life, I got away from it all, and I deserve a little party. So now, the cider, beer and vodka will enter my body along with a nice day dreamer and will alter the molecular structure of my body and brain, I will kill off brain cells, but I will have a good time doing it.
T-89 Monday, July 13
Walk in the park.
T-88 Tuesday, July 14
So tired...listen to the body. Sexy time. Home coming.
T-87 Wednesday, July 15
Still so tired. Really tired, trying to power thought the essentials, but I know that I just need rest! No sexy time. Sleep is key. Elaborate.